It’s nearly CHRISTMAS TIME!!!!

I’m sitting here in front of my computer thinking about what to write. Thinking about the many decisions that I have made over the last few months, and what my future holds.
Just over a month ago I had no future planned, no job, no prospects and no life.
Then the only woman that I have ever loved came back into my life again, and nothing has been the same since.
Candy has totally changed my life for the better, my whole outlook on the world has flipped on its back, and now I’m looking at things with new eyes and new ideals.
In a few weeks time I will be saying goodbye to Milton Keynes for good, saying goodbye to my friends, and saying goodbye to my flat.
And then saying hello to my new life in Easingwold with Candy, I admit it will take a lot of getting used to, living in the countryside, fresh air, no crime, waking up every morning with Candy beside me.
But I have no regrets, as I know this is the right path for me.
After 29 years, I can finally see a future for myself; a future with Candy, and that future is very bright.

Last Saturday night was the Ghost Hunters UK Christmas party, and it was a very good night.
Had a lot to drink and eat, the food was excellent and so was the company.
We now have an official GHUK mini bus to use on our investigations.
At last our very own mystery machine to track down spooks; ghouls and things that go bump in the night!

Yesterday was such a good day, spent the whole day with Debbie, shopping and having a laugh.
Got my Christmas prezzie from her, a box full of Xmas goodies for Candy and I to share.
James came over last night to take me out to Chillies for dinner.
I got to admit, I will miss our weekly curry nights.

Well tomorrow I’m off to see Candy and spend the whole holiday period with her.
We are going to cook a traditional Christmas dinner with all the trimmings, Christ I can’t wait for that.
I’ve not had a proper Christmas meal in years, and to wake up next to Candy on Christmas morning will be the best present I could ever wish for.

To all my friends I wish you all a very Merry Christmas and a very Merry New Year!

The Future is Bright

Where to start eh?

It seems like a lifetime ago when Candy contacted me, eons ago when we talked on the phone and an eternity since we made our plans to meet up together.
And after only three days of being together, I know with my whole being that I never want to be apart from her ever again, both of us have waited for the karmic forces of the infinite universe to allow us to be together, and now, very soon we will be together for the rest of our lives.
I’m planning on moving up to York within the next 8 weeks, I’m already looking for work up there, and I have somewhere to stay for the moment.
Plus I have asked Candy to marry me and she has said yes! so officially we are engaged.
I think it’s about time that we thought about ourselves for a change instead of others, our happiness and future, future eh?
For once I have a future, a real future full of happiness with the woman of my dreams.
Candy is honestly quite perfect for me, she’s an expect on sci-fi, comic books, weapons, fighting. She has a wicked laugh that makes me smile, she is very sexy, she has a smile that always melts my heart, I love her bed socks which are cute, she has a very strong personality and a strong heart, she has beautiful green eyes that I can lose myself in, and she also has that vulnerable innocent look that brings out the guardian inside of me.
With all my heart, I really love her.
Candy has already met my best friend Debbie, and Debs loves her to bits.
Most of my close friends are happy for me and for us, including Candy’s friends.
I know for a fact that this will work out and we will be very happy together.
I admit it is a huge step for the both of us, but it also feels just right, that we have been waiting for this all our lives,
So no matter what people say, we will be together.

Went round Martin and Sarah’s house on Sunday night for a social night; it has been a very long time for the three of us to be together for a good night.
Drank quite a bit and had a good meal.
Told them both my good news, which I think they took quite well.

Monday I met up with Debbie and Andy for drinks, had a bloody good time, talked about what I’m doing and they totally back me up, told me that I should never let go of happiness or love.
In the evening I went over to Martin and Sarah’s house for the closed medium circle, I have missed out on the last two, so I needed to catch up.
Told Jess my news and she was really happy for me, as was everyone else. They were just a slight concerned about me as it has gone really fast, but I have been waiting for Candy all my life, and I am never going to lose her again.

Tuesday I just stayed at home, did a small bit of packing and chatted to Candy and Debbie on the phone.

A New Hope

This week has been the most weird, fantastic, and wonderful week ever!
I have fallen for Candy in a big way; I should really say we have fallen for each other in a big way cuz that’s what has happened.
And it really is crazy that both of us are feeling like this, but it feels so right.
I have never ever felt like this about anyone I have ever met, Christ almighty I’m in love!
And something like this does not happen to me, me of all people, I mean come on this is Jason we are talking about here.
Good things never happen to me, not like this.
But somehow the cosmic universe/fate/something has decided that I need a break at last and has given me my Candy back.
It really is meant to be between us, I am so intoxicated by her that it’s hard to sleep, eat or breathe.
Bloody hell this is so intense.
Words really can’t describe how I’m feeling right now.
…
Anywhoo

Apart from spending hours chatting to Candy, I’ve also been doing some more job hunting as well this week, really need a job as soon as possible now.

Spent most of the morning/afternoon on Wednesday with Debbie, walking around the shopping centre and having coffee.
We had a very good chat about things, and I gave her my advice on some problems she has got at the moment.
Debs is so my best friend, I told her about Candy, and she was really happy for me/us.

Got lots to do today, it’s Andy’s birthday today, so Debbie and I are meeting up with him at Hogshead to celebrate his birthday with him.
Then at 5pm I’ve got an interview at Milliets, which is a sports/leisure shop.
Hopefully I will be able to get this job, as I would still love to work in the City Centre.

I can’t believe how much things have changed for me over the last few years.

2003 was the year of my rebirth
2004 was the year of new hope
And now 2005 will be the year that I will take over, take charge of my life and finally get my life where I want it to be.
There’s no stopping me now.
The world will be mine!
Mwahahahaha! (Dr.Evil laugh)

I’ve been thinking a lot about my life recently, and what sacrifices I have had to make over the years.
And you know what?
It is about bloody time that I started thinking about myself for a change and my happiness and future.
I will never give up my friends,
And I will always be there for them.
But maybe a change of scenery will do me some good, get out of Milton Keynes before the place kills me.

FLUFFY!

Wow what a week I’ve had so far!
Spent the whole of last Friday and Saturday job hunting.
Suzy who works at the silver jewellery stall tried getting me a job at the German market but I was a day late, so I applied at the stall instead.
I’ve must have handed out my CV to over a dozen shops this past week, I am so desperate to get some work.
I so need to clear my rent arrears and other debts.
Really don’t want to end up homeless, not after all that I’ve been thru over the years.
One good thing happened to me on Saturday was that Candy texted me, Christ I’ve really missed her, and I must admit I am so falling for her. It feels weird in a good way.
Anywhoo…
Sunday I went over to see Dylan and the gang at the emporium, but I did not stay long as it really was pissing it down, and I did not have my jacket on.
Shamus was the only one there, as Dan had to go home cuz he was ill. I think he might have had a hangover…I so need to go out drinking with these guys.
Oh yeh…hahaha…it was a mini forbidden planet reunion when I first got there in the morning, Paul Rainey, Pete, and Blair were standing there reading comics, and it felt like old times. Paul was the very first manager of forbidden planet and I was the last. Man those were the days.
One thing I do regret about the weekend was that there was a ghost hunt in Devon, and I could not make it as I was job hunting, plus I did think I was going to get this job at the German market.
Oh well, ive only missed out on two investigations in the two years ive been a member, so its not that bad.
My sweetheart texted me again on Sunday, until she ran out of credit.. hahaha, I kinda guessed what happened, so I was all right about it. She really is a sweetheart…
Monday I went up to the shopping centre to meet Rebecca for coffee, as we had loads to catch up on, it’s been a while since we last saw each other.
She works at star bucks now, so ive applied there as well…hahaha
Anyway we had a good chat about stuff that’s happening in our lives and our plans for the future, etc.
Then we went over to the cinema to watch The Incredibles, which she treated me, as I had no cash.
Oh My Gawd! That was such an excellent film, the animation was top class and it was bloody funny.
I did have a closed circle meeting to go to in the evening, but I got called up to do some quick work at royal mail, kind of a training course – on hands experience.
So I could not turn it down.
Shame really as I was looking forward to the circle night, as I don’t know when the next time I will be able to make it.
Yesterday, has so far got to be the best day this week.
Why?
Because I got to chat with Candy for pretty much over 7 hours!! I feel sorry for her phone bill.
She has such a beautiful voice, and a very wicked sense of humour, which I love.
I have learnt a lot more about her in those hours of chatting then I have ever done with any other person that I have cared about.
It felt like I could tell her anything, open my soul to her and let down my shields, which is no mean feat from me, trusting someone like this, falling for someone this fast, but then I realized that I was falling for her last year, and ive never stopped caring about her or thinking about her.
It does frighten me for the fact that I do not want to spoil things with her.
I know she feels the same way about me, I just cant wait until January, so once ive got some money im going up to York to see her.
I know she will read this journal today, and I hope not to make her blush, but she is the most beautiful, sweetest, (Fluffy*) lady I’ve ever met.
* = Private joke!
Every day I am thinking about her, it was so hard to stop talking to her on the phone last night.
“Sighs”
Anywhoo

I’m meeting up with Debbie this morning for coffee and a chat. Hope she is all right.

I’m missing Candy already.